3分钟热度

相信我，当我有不满/不开心时， 我都回写出来，这样会好过了。这样就会再3分钟里消失了。
所以为什么我会说，什么都不可3分钟热度，除了伤心，生气，不满。。=）

旁观者清

当你爱一个人时，你会情不自禁的一直想要保护对方，宁愿牺牲某人/某事物，也要确定他/她的安全/感受是处在好的状况里。。这是没有错的，但当牺牲某人时就会产生一些些问题了。怎么说呢？因那“某人”会受伤害因“某人”也是人；友情/感情就因这而受损一些些；信任缺一些等。。难怪会有“重色轻友”这四字。。。

就像我们常在戏里看到的或听到的，两个女人一起跌进大海，男的救自己喜欢的而忽略另一个女的。。就算没被救的女生安全上岸，她的心已受伤害了因为原本抱着对他的希望信任，就在那一时间看透了。。。

现在我明白了~我明白为什么他们要这样了。。哈哈哈！ 正的是。。。难形容啊！

Dance ministry..

While waiting, let me write a short blog first..=P

 I'm now not only in Choir ministry, I'm also in Dance ministry!!! Finally !! haha.. Doing what I love to do ~~ Neni neni bubu !! =P  Oh ya, and also a helper in Visitor Lounge..=) By the way, my main focus in this blog in Dance ministry..
Becoz of dance ministry, i jz realize my stamina lost a lot loo...mana stamina i? and i cant memorize the dance steps easily liao...mana you pergi, kepandaian Reb?=P
i hv to train myself again...Jia you...=)

Miss my bro

Start missing my bro again. Since we stay separately, we have lesser time to chit chat...When I sms him/call him, he won’t reply or even pick up my phone call...I purposely drove to his house and wanna see him, he also not at home even though I have already made “appointment” with him... slowly then I will not “miss” him already. But if he calls me/ sms me, I will miss him crazy...like yesterday, he sms me for dinner. Of course I was so happy for this and I will say “yes” to him though I already makan because he seldom ajak me 1. Today, I miss him badly and I wish to have dinner with him again… aiyoo~~ Reb, bila you boleh grow up 1？=p

以前VS现在

以前的我会有在人面前总有安静的时刻：

1．观察人的言语，行为  

2。在思考  

3。累

 4。发呆

但现在的我变得好想什么时候都在讲话似的，
好像没完没了一样。
以前的我到哪里去了？
是我没有活出真实的自己呢？
还是我已被环境改变了？

Am I greedy?=P

Will it sound so greedy for me if I want to join Choir ministry and at the same time, join dance ministry as well? =P I love to sing and love to dance as well... I love to be on stage honestly. I love to perform… I wish to appear in front of TV, I wish that I can be a host if I have the talent of hosting.=P haha..

I’m now in choir ministry. Dance ministry? Still in progress…haha...will join their audition on this coming Monday night… Don’t know whether I can be one of them or not because it has been a long time didn’t dance already. The last time I dance was 19 years old. Wow~~ It was 5 years ago.. Praying that I still can dance like youngsters. =P

I received a call from my leader just now. He wants to sign up as a helper in visitor lounge for me and the first response that I had was…”@@”, Why me? Being a helper in visitor lounge have to wear nicely, perform well… but I seldom wear nicely to church leh…I prefer to wear casual, like t-shirt + jean.. is that means I have to buy new clothes? Need money again..=/

Then have to speak English some more…fuyoohhhh~~

But in me, I’m super happy because I can serve and it is another chance for me to “find out” my potential..may b I have this kind of potential leh? =P

haha…So, I say “yes” to my cg leader already…

Gonna give myself a try..

Am I greedy? =P

May b this is another chance for me to train myself to be a superwoman? Haha..=P

step out from comfort zone, reb !! come on…

sick days

I drove to Seksyen 17 but I asked myself why I am here after 3 seconds…
I saw MidValley building in front of me but I was in brickfield 1 second later…
I opened my mailbox but staring at it for almost 5 mins…

I know where I am heading to at this moment but forget after 4 seconds…

I can walk but felt so tired after a while…

I look at you and you talked to me but my “soul” was not there…
I’m awake but actually not…
My eyes are open...yet my mind is empty...

This is me when I was sick for the past three days…

Protect our pockets

We need your support!

As our commitment to provide content that drives action, The Star is embarking on a campaign entitled 'Protect Our Pockets', which seeks to highlight key issues faced by Malaysians in relation to the rising cost of living. In the months to come, The Star will be organizing events and featuring articles to bring to the forefront this issue that affects all Malaysians.

To kick start this campaign, The Star hosted a Round Table discussion on 'Protect Our Pockets'.

While reading online news, I saw this...which grabs most of my attention. N-years ago, we are thankful that we are living in low living expenses country but we seldom hear this from other people nowadays. Everyone will say, “ini mahal, itu mahal, apa pun mahal”; “takda duit”; “tak cukup duit” etc..We are all living in high expenses country now..Prices keep increasing yet the salary seldom increase…I never know why the adult felt so suffering when everything is so expensive. I will answer” just pay only mah..” but I will never say it now..I understand their situation and circumstances as I’m now a working adult also..We have RM10 for the salary but we have to spent average RM0.30 –RM0.40 per day…How to survive? Sometime I really get mad with the government..but what to do? They are government… So, when I saw this pop up from The star online news, I was so happy and excited for it... 

I have already shown my support...What about you? =P

 

花茶

一直以来我都相信花茶对人体是有特定的功效的，可能因为我以前喜欢看台湾戏的缘故吧，又加上我一直都很喜欢台湾。（我还是很希望有天回去台湾旅游）但我很少喝花茶，原因是我觉得它们都很贵啊~=P

刚才心血来潮再次翻查了几种我熟悉的花茶，功效及它们的副作用，想和大家分享分享：
1. 熏衣草可松弛神经、帮助入眠，是治疗偏头痛的理想花茶。

 副作用：不适合工作时间饮用，会使精神太过放松，适合睡前喝。


2. 玫瑰花可降火气，可调理血气、促进血液循环、养颜美容，且有消除疲劳、保护肝脏、胃肠的功能。   

 副作用：玫瑰花有收敛作用，便秘者不宜饮用


3. 茉莉有提神功效，可安定情绪及舒解郁闷。有慢性支气管炎的人宜多饮用，此外它对于便秘也有帮助。 

 　副作用：镇静作用明显，不易使人兴奋


4.紫罗兰有助于治疗呼吸系统疾病，也可以解决因蛀牙引起的口腔异味

忽然觉得我的Blog都是蓝紫色的，来点不同颜色的吧！ =P

5. 金银花可清热解毒，兼有增强免疫力、抗疲劳的功效，是清热解暑的首选饮品。

副作用：脾胃虚弱者不宜常用

6.菊花茶具有散风热、平肝明目之功效，对口干、火旺、目涩，或由风、寒、湿引起的肢体疼痛、麻木的疾病均有一定的疗效

副作用：脾胃虚寒、大便稀溏的人不宜饮用。

7. 薄荷花茶可清暑、提神、用于夏季暑热烦渴、老年腹胀、矢气不通

8.百合花 安神，润肺清火，良好止咳，改善肺部功能，减轻胃疼，治慢性支气管炎、经常咳嗽/久咳，肺癌吐血

Deng Deng Deng~对花茶有点认知了吗？ =P
想去台湾吗？哈哈！ =P

My dad

May be for you, this pic have nothing special..but I'm so happy when i saw this pic uploaded by one of my hometown church member. This is because the old man remain standing with hands clapping and singing is my DAD !!! He went to church !! Yahooo~~ =) Pray that he will have more chances to go to church and pray that God's joy will fill in his heart till flowing out to others..=)

Praying that I can spend him to Mission Camp with the church member in this Nov..=) Gonna plan for it..

温馨，爱，行动

FB inbox忽然亮起红灯，看一看，原来是Panda的msg..他说，“我买了Otak-Otak给你！”
Wow~我好开心！=) 因为有人送我东西leh。。但还是要知道原因。=P结果就开玩笑地问了他，“为什么呢？中秋节礼物啊？”，结果他答我说，“因为你太好心了，买给人。所以这次给你而已lo..”
第一次感觉到温馨和体会到一个功课。
做好事不一定要常常挂在嘴边。静静做，人还是会看到的。看到的人可能还会被你的行动而改变/感动呢。。而且人看到总好过你自己自夸.=P
怎样讲也好，我也是从别人身上学的，就是我的Hometown牧师和师母。。=）

谢谢，Panda的爱心和行动. =) 谢谢牧师师母的教导和榜样！ =）

需要改变。。

看看星期六拍的照片，总结是：
Reb，你不再是大学生了。。
Reb，你不再是瘦瘦的了。。
Reb，是时候改变你拍照时的习惯了。。
Reb，是时候减肥做运动了。。

 

这是我最喜欢的一张，为什么？因为我的眼睛变大粒了。=P

老实说，我喜欢也希望有人可以一直帮我拍照，尤其是自然照。我多希望有钱聘请私人摄影师，专拍我。。哈哈，但他却必须是隐行的，因为这样我才会自然，自在。=P

刚好Isaac有照相机。。谢谢Isaac帮我(们)拍的照片哦。。=)

dance~~so near yet so far!!!

 

I love to dance and I wish to serve in Dance ministry as well honestly. However, I don’t dare to join seem there are so many “pro” people in the ministry. But every time I saw them practicing outside the dance room, how much I wish I would be one of them…

Yesterday, Adam asked me whether I want to dance or not and I answered him quickly with a “Yes, I want!” and he said tonight gonna have an audition for Christmas. I was so happy..but I don’t dare to go alone..
1. I scare I’m the only “new” friend tonight and then everyone looking at me
2. I scare I can’t catch up their step
3. I scare tonight is not open for “new” friend
4.etc

Denise said wanna go but she have photo shooting tonight..I asked Chih Ying, then she got to work till 9pm..@@ alamak..how?
I don1 2 miss the chance but I scare to go alone..=/

我有。。。啊~但。。

我有好多绯闻男友啊~但全都不是真的。。
我有好多梦想啊~但都还没成功。。
我有好多东西要尝试啊~但都还没有机会。。
我有很多东西要办啊~但都还不够钱。。

K & K 之差。。

Kampar有山有水
KL有高楼，有车

我在Kampar时，很容易找到伴一起去爬高爬低，玩这玩那，好象人说的“小孩子”
我在KL,很难找到kaki。。很难像“小孩子”一样。。

我在Kampar时，叫一声，就有人举手要运动。。
我在KL喊了大半天，没人理我，因为这里的人都不爱运动。。

在Kampar时，还要浪费一个小时的时间才能到最近的supermarket shopping。。
在KL，只需花不到半小时的时间就到supermarket，但没人陪。。

以前我在Kampar读书时，有压力，一遇假期我们就会有很多节目。。从来不觉得闷
现在我在KL工作，一样有压力，一遇假期却没有节目。。闷到我在家自己做小丑逗自己笑。。

Kampar很容易找到mamak kaki，旅游的朋友 ,crazy gang etc..
KL却比我搭巴士去工作还难。。



有人说KL是一个大城市是，一个多姿多彩的地方。。
我说Kampar虽是一个kampung但它才是一个多姿多彩的地方啊~

就连Kampar和KL小组和教会的outing，活动都大大不同。 
KL的，一有空/fellowship时间都是在吃
Kampar的，一有空/Fellowship时间除了吃，还有其他动脑精，动身体的活动。。

在Kampar享有的东西，经历，
KL都没有。。


KL出生的人本身就真的真的这么“闷”吗？
除了压力，建筑物，空气，交通，科技，奸诈社会。。还有什么？
我不应该指向KL 出生的人而已，而是包括在KL打拼几年了的人~
为什么他们都不觉得闷？因为他们活在这"世界"太久而没知觉了？
当我提起cameron/大自然的地方。。全部给我的反应是一样的。
“不要啦！闷到~”
又或者
“Huh!要么？”
我在这里过多几年后，会向他们这样吗？

Kampar，你还是最美的，你知道吗？
我好想你啊~
我有好多美好的回忆在你哪里！

爱情vs 巴士

一场大雨，使到交通缓慢；巴士站的人数越来越多。天气真的是很冷，再加上就算我们站在巴士站里，雨水还是会被风吹打到我们身上， 冷到都不知要用什么来形容。只知道在等着巴士的人都希望巴士快点到， 我也不例外。等着等着，人来人往，巴士把一些人带走了，又有被人来挤巴士站。看一看，才发现原来在等巴士的大多数是女生。一时间令我有了以下的想法：

 

人到了一定的时间（年龄），就会走到巴士站等待自己的巴士（等爱情的到来）。尤其是下雨时（有困难时），每人都希望巴士可以把他们快点的带走，不让他们被雨泠 （另一半可以被他们或把他们带走，离开这个问题）。望着 远处希望至少有巴士的影子，当看到巴士的影子时，颈项就会很长很长的升起，看是不是自己的巴士。等着等着，有的巴士终于来了（爱情到了），他们就开开心心 地上了自己的巴士（得到，接受自己的爱情）；有的却还在等待。看着别人一个一个上了他们的巴士，而我们还在等。我们就会不知觉的自问，“为什么还没来？ （为什么爱情还没来？）”，又或者埋怨起来。有时等待的当时，看到别的巴士来了而自己的还没来，就有股冲动的想随便搭一辆巴士（随便接受/找别人），到别处再搭LRT或别的巴士到目的地 （到一定的时间，或看到适合的再分手）。但当我们真真的想时，才知可能在混乱的当时，《1》会搭错巴士 （交到错的对象）；《2》或者当我们搭了这辆，真真的巴士就到了，那时就错过了真正的巴士（错过真爱）； 《3》又或者以为会更快到家，那知更加拖延到家的时间又花更多的交通费 （到时已浪费很多青春时间在不对的感情上），结果后悔。
最后还是慢慢的，有耐心的等。等到最后，我的巴士终于到了。上了巴士，开心及感谢的是我没有随便搭巴士，有不然就搭错巴士浪费钱浪费时间。还是自己的巴士比较好，知道我要去那里并可以安全的把我带回目的地。

耐心的等待是好的~=) 我很期待那对的时机，对的对象。我会耐心的等的,因为我不要自己毁灭了自己的幸福。 =)

Glee

I’m watching and chasing “Glee” recently which is a musical drama series. =) Last two weeks was my first time heard this name. My colleague was watching it during working hours then I have the chance to know this drama series then she borrow it to me. Honestly, those who love musical must watch this movie because it stir up our passion for dance and sing. Haha. While I watching “Glee” my body seem like wanna shout out “I wanna move it shake it”..yes, it’s real. How good if our life is always full with dance and music and everybody can sing… Perhaps, use ‘sing’ replace “talk”? haha…=P
“Glee”~~

Mid Autumn Festival

Today is Mid Autumn Festival. When I stayed with my family members, I will celebrate with them of course; will go to garden for lantern walk, BBQ at home, attended event at old town that held by some associations etc. Different years have different plans and the older we are, more interesting our plan is. =P Then, during my 3 years Uni life, I seldom have chance to celebrate it because every Mid Autumn Festival crashed with my exam period. Books accompanied me to pass the day. Only one year, I still remember I miss the festival so much and I wish to celebrate it...So, my mum and two sisters came to my hostel, stay overnight here. What’s for? Mum brought me moon cakes and some other foods; we didn’t have big celebration because it was raining then. My sisters have some walk and cycling I think. Mum rested in house. But this had already satisfied me a lot. For me, I always have a strong mindset that Mid Autumn Festival is the festival that we should celebrate with family members, almost same as Chinese New Year.  Therefore, I wish that I’m now with my family members. However, due to my current situation which I have to work in KL, I have to face the fact that I have to celebrate it without my family members. I’m wondering how they will celebrate this festival. Will they happy? Again, I wish to bring my parents and younger sis to KL and stay together with me… but before this, I have to buy/ rent a house first whereby I must have a lot of money… hmmm…Praying…

  Yes, tonight will be celebrating with my subzone members at Cindy’s house. I heard that there are some other than my subzone will be joining us as well and I think the mushrooms that my group prepared might not be enough for tonight.@@ Thinking of how to solve this problem. Hoping for “5 biscuits and 2 fishes” miracle...hahahaha…=P
I’m praying for good weather tonight. =) If want to rain also wait till I reached home first so that I will have a good sweet dream. =P haha.

 

plan for his future

Today, finally I know the reason Scott resign already.=) From his email, I knew he is going to start his own business few days later.

 

Wow~ I’m happy for him leh. He is the type of person who have plan for his future. He work and learn from his bosses, companies etc and now he open his own company at aged of 29. Wohooo~~so ambitious and “MAN”...haha...=P
I believe his future gf + wife will be very hang fou loo...Haha...coz he is now already a rich man and he still have his own business, for sure he will earn a lot in future. Some more he is a handsome guy yet don’t like “lobak” also...haha...Good la.
Here I wish that he will be success in his career, family, relationship etc future time la...And of course, the most important things is, pray that he will now Christ soon ! =)

 

 

Lastly，Gong xi gong xi !!!

Love and Respect

Yo~ I was super happy yesterday because it was cg night. All of us gather together and laugh together. Jordan led the blanket game so well yesterday. All of memang have fun and laugh till no voice already loo...haha. Not only the game, P&W and the sermon blessed me a lot as well especially the sermon. You know why? Hehe..because God talked to me due to the “problems” that I mentioned in previous blogs which are “roommates” and “HR manager”..haha..I still remember Cindy said "Not to pick a fight with them....let God deal with their personality....we just need to respect them.....God heal the brokenness" etc, "how many of you can tell me that you are living peacefully with your housemates?" lead me to think about my roommate..hehe.

This morning, I pray as what Cindy taught us to pray yesterday which is “Please give me strength to love and respect…” and yes, I pray all the way I go to work. =) I’m a good girl..haha…
 

Of course, when I came in the office, I still feel scare and I still don’t know how to face the HR manager later. (FYI, I still didn’t go and see her and take my medical card even though she asked someone to pass her msg to me. Some more, my manager is not coming in office today; Jeanna is running an event in Bukit Bintang area. Who is going to protect me if anything happened later when I went in to her office like that day?). I commit this fear to God and keep remind myself that everything will be fine coz He take control.

Around 3.30pm, she came to me and asked me why I didn’t go to see her since yesterday? Thanks God, I smile at her and answer her politely. Then she smiles at me as well. Hallelujah!
God is so good! =)
As for the roommate, I start learning to love her more. Forgive what she did; trying and thinking how to help her to change the habit. Honestly, everytime I woke up seeing her to hold her phone alarm tightly while still sleeping on th bed, I felt so guilty and sad leh. But I have to tahan so that she can change the habit. However, I will still thinking on how to help her so that she won’t holding the alarm while sleeping.  =) God, please give me strength to love and respect people surrounding me.
I need to
Listen when he/she is speaking
Overlook patty fault, forgive failure
Value pther people for who they are
Express my love in practical way

 *I like this pic..coz i can "feel" the "romantic" here..hahah..=P

stories in my office

In my company, it is very hard to buy something. If you want to buy something, you have to apply then pass to manager to sign (this is not difficult at all), then get approval from finance manager and boss (the toughest). I spent above 3 months to get approval to buy 1 extension cord which is only RM19.

  2 weeks before Raya, The HR manager borrows the extension cord from one of my colleague. My colleague doesn’t want to borrow her then ask me to borrow. I don’t know her purpose for lending the extension cord at that time but I knew it after I came back from Raya Holiday and I have to take it back from her because I have an event in UTAR PJ next Wed. The extension cord that my department bought is for event purpose. Therefore, I email her with a good manner, for telling her that I have to take it back from her by late next Tues. How I know she doesn’t want to return it to me and asked me to borrow from others. I was so upset honestly because:
1. She is misusing her authority to “order” me to borrow the extension cord from others seem she don’t want to do so. (It’s hard for us to borrow from others seem all of us also wanna use it some more she tried it before and she knew it is hard to borrow from people)
2. She is using my extension cord for her own purpose in her office
3. The way she talks to me is seem like talking to the slave

I don’t like to “pai ma pi” , so I replied her email and asked her to apply one seem she need it or else borrow by herself not me. She angry me. She called me to her office and scolded me and push all the “not-a –mistake” to me and treat me like I did all wrong. I tried to defend myself but she is too strong to fight back and stop me. At last, I told myself not to quarrel with her seem she return the extension cord to me (old 1 and not the new 1 that I bought). I walked in to my office, some of the colleague knew it. They came to me and console me. Finally, I cried. I cried because of their love. Though I fear and scare when I have to confront with the manager, but I didn’t cry.. Yet, I cried in front of the colleague because of their love and concern…I didn’t tell my manager, I straight   go to toilet and cry..When I came out, my manager asked..Then only I know my colleague inform my manager that I was bullied by the HR manager. My manager was so angry her because she told my manager that it is just a small case, she won’t find me etc. Yet she did it to me without letting my manager know. He was so angry and he also taught me not to be so weak. He asked me to fight back because if I didn’t, she will revenge me again when he is not in the office. (Honestly, when my manager asked me to tell him what had happened, I cried immediately. He asked me to sit down and relax first. That time I think my manager is a good listener and good problem solver. He knows girls so well.) Is this called the Office’s war?

Honestly, I was so sad and scare. On the way back home, my tears can’t stop flowing out form my eyes. When I went in to the car, I cried it out and loud. After crying, I told myself that everything will be ok.

Luckily at night, I have the chance to join the preparation of mooncake festival celebration in Chinese Church. The preparation help me in forgetting some part of the “sad” story temporary and I was enjoy doing the preparation with the team.. =) Thank God. Let me show you some pics…

Today, I pray to God that I will have a happy day in Office. I pray that the HR manager will not revenge seem my manager is not around. Honestly, I still scare. How I going to release my fear? I have to draw my attention to other things which is listen to music and stop listening to the world’s speak. =P haha.. I did it. I just put on my headphone, focus on the music and my task in hand. =)

wedding consultant

Yesterday, while I leaf through "Job search" page from the newspaper, I found one that able to grabs my full attention, which is the vacancies in one of the SS2 wedding shop lot area.they wanna hire photographer, graphic designer,  wedding consultant etc..WEDDING CONSULTANT!! Wondering are they looking for wedding planner? Hehe..Wedding consultant leh..I wish I can take this responsibility..haha..but I have no experience at all...hmmm...wish that someone willing treat me as trainee and train me..haha..=P

As I know most of the wedding held during holiday and weekends oh...means I can't attend church services and can't enjoy my holiday during "holidays"...hmm...such a big sacrifice hor?

room mate

Yes, my roommate changed her habit yesterday. She didn’t set her alarm too earlier and she just set once. But, she still disturbs my sleeping time. Why I said so? First, she will never sleep at her bed at night. She loves to “stick” to me and move around. @@ Yesterday, she throws her boaster right on my face. I was shocked and wake up… put her boaster back to her. After don’t know how many hours later…she “beat” my stomach…@@ Hmmm…Should I sleep 10 inches far away from her? Or place the cupboard at the middle of both beds?

Second, she came back late yesterday...and I think she don’t dare to on the light so she open the room’s door so that she can put and take her stuffs, remove her makeup etc..Because of this, the mosquitoes were having big banquet and I was the victim…What I wanna say is, “Roommate, as I told you before, I don’t like mosquitoes at all. Therefore, u r allowed to on the light. I won’t blame you for on the light coz I understand that you need the light to clean up yourself. Just go ahead rather than open the door.”

Am I a troublesome roommate? Am I so ma fan? Am I so choosy? I start blaming myself rather than pointing finger at her. I should be patient to her and “adjust” myself, change myself in order to stay with her, let her feel no stress and stay happily.. But I can’t overcome my feeling and principal…@@ God, I need your help!!!
Either 1 of us have to change, can both of us bertolak ansur? Those who did wrong have to change for other. I think this is the best way, right? Then both of us will train to be 89% perfect edi? Haha…

A or B?

Today, we just be informed that there are two more colleagues will leaving us soon. One is Simon and another one is Scott.

Scott is the PA for Joey Yap. I always have a mindset that PA must be very attentive and smart, so that she/he will always fulfill and help the boss. Yes, it is right. Scott is so attentive and he always "sticks" together with Joey. Because of this, I was wondering how he accompanies his girl friend because he has to travel around the world with boss for seminars and talks. One day, I had the chance to ask him.

 

Scott: S; Rebecca: R

 

R: You have to accompany Joey 24 hours, right?

S: Nope. He is not that type of boss.

R: Oh, then... He called you to meet him at somewhere immediately after you went back to home? I mean, have you experienced it before?

S: Not for now.

R: Then, seem you always travel with Boss...Almost never landed Malaysia, how your girl friend can tahan o?

S: Haha. I don't have girlfriend.

R: What? You don't have girlfriend yet? You don't want to married ar?

S: Of course I want la. But I'm now PA of Joey, no time for me to "pat tuo" also.

R: Then how?

S: Takan I will be Joey's PA forever one...I just want to gain experience and earn more money.

R: Oh...=)

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And he resigns today. Is that means he earn enough money? Is that he is ready for marriage life? Is that mean he found a girl he like and willing to sacrifice for her? Perhaps, he found higher paid of PA?

 

room mate

I seldom and will never agree to have roommate (other than my family members) because I love staying in my own personal world...Whereby I can do whatever I want without any “noise”, “interruptions” etc..And I love “hygiene”. Those who “spoil” my room’s cleanliness, I will sure change to be a monster. However, this is the second time I stay with other in the same room. The first time was during my internship. I stayed with my course mate who I knew her for few days only. I stayed with her because I have no choice. I have no time to look for room during that time. That period of time staying with her really caused me angry and sad in the beginning. Then, I tahan tahan and tahan...Thank God, the months flew away...=P

Now is my second time stay with another. She is my hometown church friend. Honestly, we seldom talk to each other though we studied in the same school and attending the same church. She never has good or bad impression to me also. What I know is she is so “sticky” to Zi fen jie and too relies on her. Then I remember one day she had little misunderstand with me, Daniel and Proskuneo regarding the duty roaster on CNY service. This added in some thought to me regarding her personality. That’s all. After all of us grew up, I met her again in KL and I told myself not to stay with her. God is so humorous. He will put in those you don’t like to do, see, touch, experience into your life, like this… This one is better than the first one but sometime also make me angry.
When I angry, I choose to keep quiet and remind myself, “Reb, love her and train yourself.  Treat this as a training and preparation for your future marriage.” Ex, the thing doesn’t put back the original place, I put it?!?!?? Of course there are still some that is worst and make me angry…To be clarifying here, I will not angry simply, but how many of you know that my limitation is not high enough? Anyone keeps repeating the same mistake will have chance to touch my line also. Luckily, she will try to change herself and say sorry when she knew she was wrong.

 

Let me give you a clear picture with just one real story. Like today, I was angry because she love to set her alarm earlier than anyone...is super earlier oh...then she will wake up to set 2^nd time of alarm and felt sleep again..And keep doing the same thing till I wake up and prepare myself...She will wake up after I bath or earlier than that... What I angry is...why she love to set the alarm earlier than everyone seem she never plan to wake up so earlier? The answer she gave is, “I will ‘lai chuang’ so must put earlier”...But what’s the point if you put it so many “earlier” and then wake up set another 1 and sleep again, wake up set another 1 and sleep again , doing the same thing till you wake up at the time you plan for? Furthermore, when the alarm rang, she is not the one who wake up...I have to call her name then only she will wake up..@@ Oh my…you are so selfish leh...Can you please set only 1 alarm at the time you want to wake up only? It is useless for you to set so many time coz no matter how many time you set, I am the one who wake up not you… This morning, I did not talk to her because I’m in bad mood and she sms me. This is her “merit”. =) Then I honest to her and she replied me with “I will try to change it starting form today”...This is another “merit” of hers. =) Of course, I will give her chances to change…

Yeap, I am learning to “stay” with her and it is a must for me also. =) Pray that I will know her better and we will stay happily la. Pray that I have big capacity of gas as well.

 

Weird dream #2

1 of the semester break, I joined the mission trip to Thailand then straight back to Kedah. After that I went back to Kampar to continue my new semester. Since the night I came back to Kampar, I never have a good sleep. Sometimes insomnia and sometime dreamt of bad dreams. I was so struggling and tired due to the bad dreams. At last, my Kampar pastor came to my room with the oil, pray for me and my room, asked God for the anointing and cleanser. After that, no more bad dreams visit me anymore. It was two years ago.

Now, bad dreams came again. I had it twice b4 I went back to hometown actually but after I pray to God, it disappeared. Then it came again when I came back from hometown which is past Monday. I need a good sleep ar~~ The dreams were so weird and sometime quite scary.

1^st dream – As mentioned in previous blog. Please click here.

2^nd dream – Not so clear. What I remember is Parents and me just finish one of the function and mum drove us back. On the way back, we passed the place that we had the function just now and then not far away, we meet an accident. Mum drove so near to the big drain and our car turn over then felt into the drain. I shouted “Mama!”, then the car split into two but thanks God, all of us were safe. We still can go out form the drain with the help of people who joined the function with us just now.  I still remember the car mum drove is red color but none of our cars is red leh.

3^rd dream – this time, I dreamt of pastor in my hometown church. Same, not so clear and not in details. What I remember is Pastor was betrayed and got shot by someone, and then he hides himself to Wesley church secretly. As for GMC (my hometown church), Mrs T took over. I was not with Mrs T but was like looking all these happened as TV drama. One day, everyone were there with Mrs T and I don’t even know why I was suddenly become one of the “actress” in this dream. Mrs T stood at the entrance of GMC in Gurun and giving welcome speech. Then suddenly she said something regarding pastor and she felt so angry (I can’t remember what she said), then pastor suddenly appeared in the dream and he cried while explaining what had happened to him. Everyone looked at him and I can’t remember the rest of the story.  However, I felt so scare, sad and weird for the dream but don’t know what made me felt that. Was wondering why pastor was shot by someone? Who is the “someone”? Why pastor will hide in Wesley church who is not the real personality of pastor that I knew. Why Mrs T so angry and scolded pastor? A lot of questions here…but no one answer.

satan’s work? or worry too much?  I have to pray for it. I need peace…I need sweet dream and good rest….

 

 

感想

等下要坐10.30的巴士回去KL了。。。讲真的我的心情现在很复杂~

回来SP的一个星期根本不能“补偿”我过去8个月离开家的时间
过去应该做的事必需在这一个星期里“完成”，真的是太冲忙了。。

只有一天去探望婆婆公公，到那里陪他们一起去老小舅的家过Hari Raya (我也才知道我有亲戚是回教徒), 我和公公婆婆根本没多少时间谈话-----我回时，公公婆婆还问我和弟弟，“你们几时会再回来？”

爸爸妈妈都忙着开摊工作，尤其是我爸。。帮妈开摊后，回家休息一阵子就去工作。晚上1 点多才回家，我根本没时间和他讲话。最多就在我们一起帮妈开摊时谈一些。----我今早起床，爸以为我是妹妹，就问“二姐等下就回了啊？”

因这忙于帮妈妈，有点忽略了妹妹。（老实讲，小贩真的是很累的工作）还好我妹会主动牺牲她的时间陪我去开摊等，就利用那时间和我“玩”，但是有多少人知道那是不够的？---我妹昨晚哭了，说“你要回了”

我妈因为我今天要回，昨晚去看歌唱比赛后，到桃园茶餐室买了我喜欢吃的“米谷”（migu in hokkien) 和鸡蛋糕，好让我在巴士上可以吃 （因我弟花了10小时才到KL).不止，我妈还买了杏仁粉给我。我很遗憾的是我还帮妈不够---她的嘴干到破了，我都没买Petroleum oil给她，没带她去按摩等~


而我等下就回去我必须面对的世界了。。其实我是有点害怕的，毕竟我已在“安全区”活了一个星期，现在要我回去“危险期”真的是会唤起我的恐惧~我只能祷告，求神保守~

好了，要整理我的行李了。下次再写吧~